I've enjoyed training again, I've enjoyed pushing myself in the pool and I'll keep on swimming until I feel I cannot get any more out of myself.

Remember to do the things you enjoy away from swimming, regularly.

Compared to how I have raced before and how I have competed, the success that I have had, this does look like doom compared to it.

There is water in every lane, so it is OK.

Sometimes we question things that we have done in our lives but how many times do we question what we haven't done in someone else's?

When I go out and race, I'm not trying to beat opponents, I'm trying to beat what I have done ... to beat myself, basically. People find that hard to believe because we've had such a bias to always strive to win things. If you win something and you haven't put everything into it, you haven't actually achieved anything at all. When you've had to work hard for something and you've got the best you can out of yourself on that given day, that's where you get satisfaction from.

I've missed out on a huge goal but the desire is still there.