I've missed out on a huge goal but the desire is still there.

Compared to how I have raced before and how I have competed, the success that I have had, this does look like doom compared to it.

People ask me 'what was going through your mind in the race?' and I don't know. I try and ...let my body do what it knows

For myself, losing is not coming second. It's getting out of the water knowing you could have done better. For myself, I have won every race I've been in

I thought I could, and thought I would, swim a lot quicker - much quicker.

I've missed out on a huge goal but the desire is still there.

I've enjoyed training again, I've enjoyed pushing myself in the pool and I'll keep on swimming until I feel I cannot get any more out of myself.