I've missed out on a huge goal but the desire is still there.

I've enjoyed training again, I've enjoyed pushing myself in the pool and I'll keep on swimming until I feel I cannot get any more out of myself.

People ask me 'what was going through your mind in the race?' and I don't know. I try and ...let my body do what it knows

For myself, losing is not coming second. It's getting out of the water knowing you could have done better. For myself, I have won every race I've been in

When I go out and race, I'm not trying to beat opponents, I'm trying to beat what I have done ... to beat myself, basically. People find that hard to believe because we've had such a bias to always strive to win things. If you win something and you haven't put everything into it, you haven't actually achieved anything at all. When you've had to work hard for something and you've got the best you can out of yourself on that given day, that's where you get satisfaction from.

I think now I'll probably take a few days off and enjoy the competition and then sit down with a few people and work out what is next, work out what the next preparation will be and what competition will be next.

Compared to how I have raced before and how I have competed, the success that I have had, this does look like doom compared to it.