I'm all for Christianity, but insolence must be put down.
The purpose of writing is to make your mother and father drop dead with shame.
Rid the mind of knowledge when looking for pleasure. Or start thinking and find a lot of pain.
Writing is turning one's worst moments into money.
And no. I must not go on thinking. For the pain will never go away. You just go on and live. In the dust of desertion. Still falling where last I loved.
At the age of 18 I don't think that I thought very differently than I did at the age of 25. I think we instinctively have the knowledge and adapt the knowledge we need.