I want to be an art-hero - I want to change the form of the novel.
Everything is imprinted for ever with what it once was.
I have no idea what happens next.
I find pieces of myself everywhere, and I cut myself handling them.
You don't get over it because 'it' is the person you loved.
Not much touches us, but we long to be touched. We lie awake at night willing the darkness to part and show us a vision.