What I want out of tennis is not necessarily just winning.
People want to hear what I have to say and respect what I say.
It doesn't matter whether I qualify or wildcards.
Let me say that the path I did take for a brief period of my life was not of reckless drug use, hurting others, but it was a path of quiet rebellion, of a little experimentation of a darker side of my confusion in a confusing world, lost in the midst of finding my identity.
Yes, I made mistakes by rebelling, by acting out in confused ways.
You have to block everything out and be extremely focused and be relaxed and mellow too.