That’s you. Callie, you’re the only person that’s ever made me feel happy about anything. That night you saved me, you changed something in me—you made me want to live.
Jessica SorensenI try not to laugh at the fact that even when she’s drunk, she has a hard time saying it. “Where do you want me to take you?” She drops her head back against my chest. “You can just keep carrying me. It’s very relaxing.
Jessica SorensenIt's because you aren't thinking very clearly tonight." "I know. Being Drunk is weird." "Oh my god. I love you so much. Especially when you say stuff like that." "Like what?" "Nothing. Never mind. Although I'm dying to know why your shoe is green.
Jessica SorensenWhen his lips return to mine, it's not just about lust or desire - it's about making us whole.
Jessica SorensenThat's because you loved me. You just didn't know it yet." "You didn't know it either. You were just as blind as me.
Jessica SorensenI think the people who go through more can end up stronger in the long run. They have insight in to what a lot of people don’t have and a better understanding—they can be more open-minded. - Ella's mother
Jessica SorensenOne of the stall doors swings open and a fortyish-year-old woman walks out tucking her shirt into her jeans. Her heavy lined eyes land on Seth. "This is the women's restroom." She points a finger to the door. "Can't you read?" "Can't you see that everyone in this club is about twenty years younger than you?" Seth retorts, turning to the mirror. With his pinkie, he messes with bangs. "Now if you'll excuse us, we're going to have some fun.
Jessica SorensenYou really need stitches," she tells me."Or you're going to have a scar." I try not to laugh. Stitches aren't going to help. They fix skin, cuts, wounds, heal stuff on the outside. Everything broken with me is on the inside. "I can handle scars, especially one's on the outside.
Jessica SorensenPretend all you want, pretty girl. You and I know that deep down you’re secretly glad to be pressed up to my body.
Jessica SorensenAt least tell me you won? And that the scratches and dings were totally worth it." "Of course. They're always worth it," he says with a hidden meaning that only the two of us could ever understand.
Jessica SorensenSo I let my shame own me, kill me, wilt me away into a thousand dead flakes, knowing if I kept it all in, she would never have to learn the dirtiness that was forever inside me--the bad, the ugly, the twisted. She could go on living her life happy, just like she deserved.
Jessica SorensenKayden: Yeah, but you're a girl. Me: Oh, I forgot for a sec. Thanx for reminding me. Kayden: I haven't forgotten at all. In fact, it's all I think about all the time. Me: That I'm a girl?? Kayden: That ur a girl I very badly want to touch right now
Jessica SorensenI take my time because I love how it feels to carry her, the way she needs me, the way I need to protect her.
Jessica SorensenYou don’t forget. You just move past it. Let go. Be who you were supposed to be instead of who they make you feel like you should be
Jessica SorensenLife is full of luck, like getting dealt a good hand, or simply by being in the right place at the right time. Some people get luck handed to them, a second chance, a save. It can happen heroically, or by a simple coincidence , but there are those who don’t get luck on a shiny platter, who end up in the wrong place at the wrong time, who don’t get saved.
Jessica SorensenI can handle scars, especially ones that are on the outside." I understand his meaning from the depths of my heart.
Jessica SorensenIts's just that... this is the realest thing I've had in a long time and it scares me a bit.
Jessica SorensenHe laughs, sucking his lip ring into his mouth. "I promise I'll go easy on you." A naughty feeling dances inside me. "What if I don't want you to go easy on me?
Jessica SorensenI swear love is the most powerful emotion thats ever existed. It owns people, devours them, tears them open and bleeds them out from the inside, making them defenseless to everything. Hate is the same way. Hate takes your levelheadedness and even your sanity away from you.
Jessica SorensenI'm just here,existing at the surface of the water,not quite drowning but not quite able to breathe.
Jessica SorensenNo, but I've never been one for wise ideas," he says. "I believe in irrational, fleeting decisions that keep life interesting. And life needs to be interesting because we've got only one of them to live.
Jessica SorensenThat okay. I'll go find somewhere else to sleep." Her fingers wrap around my arm. "You don't have to go anywhere. I feel safe with you.
Jessica SorensenBut sometimes stuff happens and we find ourselves lost, and suddenly we're standing in a place we don't recognize and can't remember walking-or falling-there, and we're unsure how to get back or if we even want to.
Jessica SorensenHow am I supposed to move forward in life when everything important to me is motionless?
Jessica SorensenIt's what's buried deep inside that frightens me because it's broken, like a shattered mirror.
Jessica SorensenBlinded by the opaque veil of mortality, her eyes are always sealed, like a tomb She wants to know- wants to feel that fire, the brightness of the moon So she searches for light, only to realize its in her, like an ember equipped to ignite.
Jessica SorensenI'll always be with you, inside and out," she reads. "Through hard times and helpless ones, through love, through doubt.
Jessica SorensenI love you, Ella May and nothing will ever change that. You can push me away -run away – and I will still love you.
Jessica SorensenThere is something about someone trusting you enough with their secrets that it makes it easier to trust them. It’s like they’re opening their heart and in return yours should open up to them, too.
Jessica SorensenI often wonder what drives people to do things. Whether it's put into their minds at birth, or if it is learned as they grow. Maybe it's even forced upon them by circumstances that are out of their hands. Does anyone have control over their lives or are we all helpless?
Jessica SorensenHow can you want to touch me after what I did?" "How can I ever not want to touch you?
Jessica SorensenI search my brain for the truth. “I want it more than anything, just as long as you promise me one thing.” “And what’s that?” “That if at any time it gets to be too much for you, you’ll leave me—walk away and get out.” “That will never happen,” he guarantees me. “You need to give me some credit. You left me, ripped out my heart, and then came back acting like a robot, and you know what? We made it through. You and I, good or bad, belong together. We make each other whole.
Jessica SorensenYou've always had a good grasp on what's right and wrong. You just have a hard time admitting that sometimes you choose the wrong.
Jessica SorensenThe guy behind the counter scratches his neck. “Are you being serious?” Her face is stoic. “Absolutely. I never kid about teddy bears.
Jessica SorensenNo. I just never wanted to throw them away. Even if they were broken. I still loved them.
Jessica SorensenYou think that just because you left, it would change how I feel? Well, guess what? You're wrong. I can't help how I feel. I'm still in-
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