All along โ not only since she left, but for a decade before โ I had been imagining her without listening, without knowing that she made as a poor a window as I did. And so I could not imagine her as a person who could feel fear, who could feel isolated in a roomful of people, who could be shy about her record collection because it was too personal to share. Someone who might have read travel books to escape having to live in the town that so many people escape to. Someone who โ because no one thought she was a person โ had no one to really talk to.
John GreenYou just gotta tell her, man,โ I said. โYou just gotta say, โAngela, I really like you, but thereโs something you need to know: when we go to my house and hook up, weโll be watched by the twenty-four hundred eyes of twelve hundred black Santas.
John GreenBefore I got here, I thought for a long time that the way out of the labyrinth was to pretend that it did not exist, to build a small, self-sufficient world in the back corner of the endless maze and to pretend that I was not lost, but home.
John GreenThat was the worst part about having cancer, sometimes: The physical evidence of disease separates you from other people.
John GreenI'm sorry," she says. I wheel around. "You know, you're a total know-it-all. And it's incredibly rude sometimes; I mean, you're not perfect either, and you act like it's my fault but it's not my fault for being quiet or your fault for being a know-it-all. It's not your problem or my problem; it's their problem. They're the demented ones, not us, so don't take it out on me, because the only thing that holds things together for me is having someone else on the Not Demented Team.
John Green