Interesting capitalization,' I said. 'Yeah. I'm a big believer in random capitalization. The rules of capitalization are so unfair to words in the middle.
John GreenAnd it was just the three of us - three bodies and two people - the three who knew what had happened and too many layers between all of us too much keeping us from one another.
John GreenHe flipped himself onto his side and kissed me. "You're so hot," I said, my hand still on his leg. "I'm starting to think you have an amputee fetish," he answered, still kissing me. I laughed. "I have an Augustus Waters fetish," I explained.
John GreenโI thought we were in a church basement, but we are literally in the heart of Jesus.โ โSomeone should tell Jesus,โ I said. โI mean, it's gotta be dangerous, storing children with cancer in your heart.โ โI would tell Him myself.โ Augustus said, โbut unfortunately I am literally stuck inside of His heart, so He won't be able to hear me.โ
John GreenAgustus asked if I wanted to go with him to Support Group, but I was really tired from my busy day of Having Cancer, so I passed.
John GreenMental health days only exist for people who have the luxury of saying 'I don't want to deal with things today' and then can take the whole day off, while the rest of us are stuck fighting the fights we always fight, with no one really caring one way or another, unless...
John GreenWe don't suffer from a shortage of metaphors . . . But you have to be careful which metaphor you choose, because it matters.
John GreenWe're not going to break anything. Don't think of it as breaking in to SeaWorld. Think of it as visiting SeaWorld in the middle of the night for free.
John GreenThe pleasure of remembering had been taken from me, there was no longer anyone to remember with.
John GreenI didn't want to look at them, so I looked away, and to look away was to look at Augustus.
John GreenHe wanted to draw out the moment before the moment- because as good as kissing feels, nothing feels as good as the anticipation of it.
John GreenI love making YouTube videos. I love Tumblr, I love Twitter. I love talking with people I find interesting about stuff I find interesting, and the Internet is a great way to do that.
John GreenThat's the great thing about being in the third grade. If you've got one polysyllabic adjective, everyone thinks you're a genius.
John GreenI told Augustus the broad outline of my miracle: diagnosed with Stage IV thyroid cancer when I was thirteen. (I didnโt tell him that the diagnosis came three months after I got my first period. Like: Congratulations! Youโre a woman. Now die.)
John GreenBoys are much more likely to objectify girls bodies, while boys are seen by girls as whole people.
John GreenIt looked like an old painting, but real - everything achingly idyllic in the morning light - and I thought about how wonderfully strange it would be to live in a place where almost everything had been built by the dead.
John GreenMuch of my life had been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me, so I knew what Augustus was doing. You clench your teeth. You look up. You tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but a Sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile.
John GreenI don't know why boys expect us to like boy movies. We don't expect them to like girl movies.
John GreenYou can love someone so much...But you can never love people as much as you can miss them.
John GreenUltimately what I like about reading together is that we all make it happen together. Of course even amid shared experience weโre still aloneโฆ each reading of each book is unique. But what a comfort it is to share readings and experiences. How lucky we are when we get to be alone together.
John GreenHazel has to realize that her mom was wrong when she said, โI wonโt be a mother anymore.โ The truth is, after Hazel dies (assuming she dies), her mom will still be her mom, just as my grandmother is still my grandmother even though she has died. As long as either person is still alive, that relationship survives. (It changes, but it survives.)
John GreenYou could hold me and I could hold you. And it would be so peaceful. Completely peaceful. Like the feeling of sleep, but awake in it together.
John GreenWhen adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail.
John GreenSo I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.
John GreenIt's easy to like someone from a distance. But when she stopped being this amazing unattainable thing or whatever, and started being, like, just a regular girl with a weird relationship with food and frequent crankiness wh's kind of bossy--then I had to basically start liking a while different person.
John GreenYou can pick your friends, and you can pick your nose, but you canโt pick your friendโs nose.
John GreenGetting you a date to prom is so hard that the hypothetical idea itself is used to cut diamonds.
John GreenAll salvation is temporary," Augustus shot back. "I bought them a minute. Maybe that's the minute that buys them an hour, which is the hour that buys them a year. No one's gonna buy them forever, Hazel Grace, but my life bought them a minute. And that's not nothing.
John GreenSee, popularity is complicated. You have to spend a lot of time thinking about liking; you have to really like being liked, and also sort like being disliked.
John GreenI feel like crying, so I must be crying, but it's impossible to tell because I'm underwater.
John GreenI know it's impossible for you to see your peers this way, but when you're older, you start to see them--the bad kids and the good kids and all kids--as people. They're just people, who deserve to be cared for.
John GreenYou can trust that caring, as a rule, ends poorly,โ which is true. Caring doesnโt sometimes lead to misery. It always does.
John GreenSorry," I said to the Duke. "Eh, it's not your fault. It's Carla's fault. You were turning the wheel. Carla just wasn't listening. I knew I shouldn't have loved her. She's like all the others, Tobin; as soon as I confess my love, she abandons me." I laughed. "I never abandoned you," I said patting on her back. "Yeah, well, (a.) I never confessed my love to you, and (b.) I'm not even female to you.
John GreenAnd I will forget her, yes. That which came together will fall apart slowly, but she will forgive my forgetting, just as I forgive her for forgetting me and the Colonel and nothing but herself and her mom in those last moments as she spent as a person.
John Green