I love you' really is the gateway drug of breaking up.
At some point we all look up and realize we are lost in a maze.
Doing stuff never feels as good as you hope it will feel.
I'm sorry. I know you loved her. It was hard not to.
Daddy is trying really fugging hard to think of a not-terrifying reason why you'd wake Daddy up in the middle of the night to ask that fugging question. But no. No. Daddy does not have a match or a lighter.
Even then, it hurt. The pain was always there, pulling me inside of myself, demanding to be felt. It always felt like I was waking up from the pain when something in the world outside of me suddenly required my comment or attention.