Much of my life had been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me, so I knew what Augustus was doing. You clench your teeth. You look up. You tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but a Sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile.
John GreenSo I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.
John GreenThe good times and the bad times both will pass. It will pass. It will get easier. But the fact that it will get easier does not mean that it doesnโt hurt now. And when people try to minimize your pain they are doing you a disservice. And when you try to minimize your own pain youโre doing yourself a disservice. Donโt do that. The truth is that it hurts because itโs real. It hurts because it mattered. And thatโs an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesnโt mean that it wonโt end, that it wonโt get better. Because it will.
John Green