I could try to pretend that I didn't care anymore, but it could never be true again. You can't just make yourself matter, and then die, Alaska, because now, I am irretrievably different, and I'm sorry I let you go, yes, but you made the choice.
John GreenThat's what I realized: if I did get her back somehow, she wouldn't fill the hole that losing her created.
John GreenThere was quite a lot of competitiveness about it, with everybody wanting to beat not only cancer itself, but also the other people in the room. Like, I realize that this is irrational, but when they tell you that you have, say, a 20 percent chance of living five years, the math kicks in and you figure thatโs one in five . . . so you look around and think, as any healthy person would: I gotta outlast four of these bastards.
John Green