When you live with a potentially life-threatening condition you get used to the thought of dying. You accept it, you push on. The thing that scared me was the picture of dying slowly and painfully, the loss of independence and identity to illness.
Josh LanyonPeople loved you in the way they knew how - and often it was not the way you knew. Or needed.
Josh LanyonRachel delivered it like an official pronouncement. Like she was one of the fairies gifting Sleeping Beauty's christening: Beauty. Intelligence. Heterosexual.
Josh LanyonHearts got broken every day. Nobody died from that. But it did kind of fade the sunlight and drain the color from the days.
Josh LanyonI gave a helpless laugh. โDamned if I know. I thinkโฆwe seem to have reached impasse. I feel betrayed by your friendship with Verlane. I realize thatโs not logical. I realize that if Iโd made the mistakes Verlane has made, Iโd want my friends to stand by me, hope that someone would help me when the time came. I justโฆโ โWhat?โ I met his eyes. โI just need to come first for someone, Guy.
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