I wish I was invisible to him, to everyone.

I knew right then and there nothing was ever going to change. It wouldn't matter if I was tall or short or fat or thin or absent every day. I was a loser from birth.

Trust. That was what this was all about. If you can't trust the one you love, you don't have anything.

What you see, isn't always what you get

I've never been afraid of the dark. I'm more afraid of the day, of people. I love the night. The solitude. Well, I don't love it. I don't feel love. I hate people, so I hope when I get there it isn't crowded. I hope the light is a momentary phenomenon and the other side is completely black. And silent.

I won't be alive so I won't care who finds me.

What will I become? Because I won't be me any longer. That will be a relief. I dont want to be the helpless person I've always been.