What will I become? Because I won't be me any longer. That will be a relief. I dont want to be the helpless person I've always been.

I wish I could tell my parents, " If you want to help me, help me die.

I don't sleep. All night long I'm wide awake, thinking, Secrets, secrets, secrets. There are secrets in my past no one needs to know. Secrets in my present that might kill Kim and Chip. I don't want to take my secrets with me when I go. When I pass through the light, i want to be free of everything and everyone.

No one ever found out what was happening inside me. How the pain was eating me away. No one ever came to my rescue, or stood up for me.

It was her way of saying, "You should kill yourself.

Stop trying to save me. You couldn't then; you can't now.

Why couldn't I have a fatal disease? It'd be so much easier.