There was more happiness in the process, in the build, in the preparation. The winning was almost phoned in.

I am flawed, deeply flawed. I didn't invent the [doping] culture but I didn't try to stop the culture and that's my mistake, and that's what I have to be sorry for.

It's nice to win. I'll never win again. I may have to take up golf - take on Tiger.

I don't think history is stupid.History ultimately rectifies a lot of these things. If you had to ask me what I think happens in 50 years, I don't think it sits empty in 50 years. Maybe somebody else's name is there. But you can't leave it empty.

My cocktail, so to speak, was only EPO, but not a lot, transfusions and testosterone.

Pain is only temporary. Quitting is forever!

That was my decision, so I have to be responsible for that. It was one of the biggest mistakes of my life and I don't have a good reason for why I wanted to come back, I don't have a good reason for doing it all.