like I am Alice in the Wonderland and have gotten too big for the room.

We can never understand. We can only try, fumbling our way through the tunneled places, reaching for light.

it seemed a lifetime ago i'd lain in bed with Lena and felt her breath tickling my chin and held her while she slept, felt her heart beating through her skin to mine. it was a lifetime ago. everything was different.

My boyfriend's an idiot," I say as soon as he lurches away."A cute idiot," Ally corrects me."That's like saying 'a cute mutant.' Doesn't exist.

I’ve been trying so hard not to think his name, not to even breathe the idea of him

Nothing exists but him.

I'm starved for different light, a different sun,different sky.