The priests and the scientists are right about one thing: At our heart, at our base, we are no better than animals.
Lauren OliverHow is it possible, I think, to change so much and not be able to change anything at all?
Lauren OliverFor a second I feel a rush of sadness: for the horizons that vanish behind us, for the people we leave behind, the tiny-doll selves that get stored away and ultimately buried.
Lauren OliverSo far I've seen the life studies packet used as (1) an umbrella, (2) a makeshift towel, (3) a pillow, and now this. I have never actually seen anyone study with it, which either means that everyone who graduates from Thomas Jefferson will be totally unprepared for life or that certain things can't be learned in bullet-point format.
Lauren OliverMama, Mama, put me to bed I wonโt make it home, Iโm already half-dead I met an Invalid, and fell for his art He showed me his smile, and went straight for my heart.
Lauren OliverBecause if it werenโt for me, Lena and Alex would never have been caught at all. I told on them. I was jealous.
Lauren OliverWe wanted the freedom to love. We wanted the freedom to choose. Now we have to fight for it.
Lauren OliverAre you sure that being like everybody else will make you happy?" "I don't know any other way." "Let me show you." And then we're kissing. Or at least, I think we're kissingโI've only seen it done a couple of times, quick closed-mouth pecks at weddings or on formal occasions. But this isn't like anything I've ever seen, or imagined, or even dreamed: this is like music or dancing but better than both.
Lauren OliverHere's another thing to remember: hope keeps you alive. Even when you're dead, it's the only thing that keeps you alive.
Lauren OliverDespite the fact that Raven and Tack are often fighting, it's impossible to imagine one without the other. They are like two plants that have grown around each other - they strangle and squeeze and support at the same time.
Lauren OliverDo the other kids make fun of you? For how you talk?' 'Sometimes.' 'So why don't you do something about it? You could learn to talk differently, you know.' But this is my voice. How would you be able to tell when I was talking?
Lauren OliverAlex is dead, do you hear me? All of that-what we felt, what it meant- that's done now, okay? Buried. Blown away.
Lauren OliverI keep having the urge to cross my hands over my chest, to cover up my breasts, to hide. I'm suddenly aware of how pale I look in the sunshine, and how many moles I have spotting up and down my chest, and I just know he's looking at me thinking i'm wrong or deformed. But the he breathes, 'Beautiful' and when his eyes meet mine I know that he really, truly means it.
Lauren OliverAnd when we are with Alex, I might as well not be there. They speak in a language of whispers and giggles and secrets; their words are like a fairy-tale tangle of thorns, which place a wall between us.
Lauren OliverI didnโt know it would be like this,โ he says in a whisper. And then: โIโm scared.
Lauren OliverYou can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist
Lauren OliverWho knows? Maybe theyโre right. Maybe we are driven crazy by our feelings. Maybe love is a disease, and we would be better off without it. But we have chosen a different road. And in the end that is the point of escaping the cure: We are free to choose. We are even free to choose the wrong thing.
Lauren OliverA good friend keeps your secrets for you. A best friend helps you keep your own secrets.
Lauren OliverAnd when I wake up it's wonderful, like I've been carried quietly onto a calm, peaceful shore, and the dream, and its meaning, has broken over me like a wave and is ebbing away now, leaving me with a single, solid certainty. I know now.
Lauren OliverThe sun has just risen, weak and watery-looking, like it had just spilled itself over the horizon and is too lazy to clean itself up.
Lauren OliverIt was a bird. A bird struggling through stickiness: a bird coated in paint, floundering in its nest, splashing color everywhere. Red. Red. Red. Dozens of them: black feathers coated thickly with crimson-colored paint, fluttering among the branches. Red means run.
Lauren OliverFeelings aren't forever. Time waits for no one, but progress waits for man to enact it.
Lauren OliverBut this isnโt like anything Iโve ever seen, or imagined, or even dreamed: This is like music or dancing but better than both.
Lauren Oliveri feel like a curtain has dropped away and i'm seeing people for who they really are, different, and sharp, and unknowable.
Lauren OliverYou have to understand. I am no one special. I am just a single girl. I am five feet two inches tall and I am in-between in every way. But I have a secret. You can build walls all the way to the sky and I will find a way to fly above them. You can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist.
Lauren OliverI know what the problem is, of course. The disorientation, the distraction, the difficulty focusing - all classic Phase One signs of deliria. But I don't care. If pneumonia felt this good I'd stand out in the snow in the winter with bare feet and no coat, or march into the hospital and kiss pneumonia patients
Lauren OliverNo one can tell us no. No one can make us stop. We have picked each other and the rest of the world can go to hell.
Lauren OliverSummer explodes into Portland. In early June the heat was there but not the color--the green were still pale and tentative, the morning had a biting coolness--but by the last week of school everything is Technicolor and splash, outrageous blue skies and purple thunderstorms and ink-black night skies and red flowers as brights as spots of blood.
Lauren Oliver