To write an article about someone and then to have that person murdered is disturbing.

I never intended to be a journalist. Frankly, I don't think I ever was a journalist. I backed into it.

I loved seeing my name in print, I loved seeing my words in print. I felt really privileged to be in the kind of company I was in at Esquire, but I didn't think it was going to launch a career as a top-notch journalist. It's just not what I wanted.

I've never written a hard journalism piece in my life. I've never wanted to do that.

Success and failure. We think of them as opposites, but they're really not. They're companions - the hero and the sidekick.

All of us ambitious young writers hoped to have a cover story in Esquire, of course. The idea was to write the best, most entertaining article that you can.

To write an article about someone and then to have that person murdered is disturbing.