Do not seek the answers. Let the answers find you.
Everything that occurs in your life is part of God's plan to wake you up.
"What do I want?" is your question. And what you want is always changing with the flow. So go with the flow.
Don't diminish yourself in any way. Dare to be all that you are.
When you awaken, you will see that this is Heaven on Earth, and everything in physical form is the body of God.
You cannot be present in an abstract way. Presence is not about disappearing into nothingness. You can only be present with something that is actually here.