expectation isn't the same as desire

I didn't much like it, this grudge-holding against the past.

Books are frozen voices, in the same way that musical scores are frozen music. The score is a way of transmitting the music to someone who can play it, releasing it into the air where it can once more be heard. And the black alphabet marks on the page represent words that were once spoken, if only in the writer's head. They lie there inert until a reader comes along and transforms the letters into living sounds. The reader is the musician of the book: each reader may read the same text, just as each violinist plays the same piece, but each interpretation is different.

Another belief of mine; that everyone else my age is an adult, whereas I am merely in disguise.

Reality simply consists of different points of view.

I want to be held and told my name. I want to be valued, in ways that I am not; I want to be more than valuable. I repeat my former name; remind myself of what I once could do, how others saw me. I want to steal something.

Nothing is more difficult than to understand the dead, I've found; but nothing is more dangerous than to ignore them.