He had lunch with Cecilia that afternoon. They ate their corned beef on rye and cream cheese with lox in a diner peopled by waiters who looked like theyยดd met with utter disappointment and become attached to it.
Mary GaitskillWhat are you thinking?โ She asks. -That you are beautiful. That not everyone could see it. I almost became the kind of person who could not.
Mary GaitskillI think people hold back all kinds of things. And in a way, they just want to be nice. They want to be civil.
Mary GaitskillShe disapproved, but part of her seemed secretly to sympathize with the sickness. It was like she thought everybody had it, and the best you could do was to cover it up, and sometimes it would just come boiling out anyway. Then you had to point at it and condemn it, even though you knew you had it too.
Mary GaitskillThere isn't going to be anyone to tell you what to do most of the time. It has to be your own decision and you have to learn to trust that, or learn that it's wrong. The hard truth is that there are people who believe they're writers and work hard at it and are sincere about it, but they don't make it. You have to be prepared for that possibility.
Mary Gaitskill