She'd never imagined it like this-when she thought of someone (a woman like herself)losing her mind, she'd imagined shrieks and wails, hallucinations; but at that moment it had seemed clear that there was another way, far quieter; a way that was numb and hopeless, flat, so much so that an emotion as strong as sorrow would have been a relief.
Michael CunninghamOh, all you immigrants and visionaries, what do you hope to find here, who do you hope to become?
Michael CunninghamYou want to give him the book of his own life, the book that will locate him, parent him, arm him for the changes.
Michael CunninghamThis is what you do. You make a future for yourself out of the raw material at hand.
Michael CunninghamMaybe itโs not, in the end, the virtues of others that so wrenches our hearts as it is the sense of almost unbearably poignant recognition when we see them at their most base, in their sorrow and gluttony and foolishness. You need the virtues, tooโsome sort of virtuesโbut we donโt care about Emma Bovary or Anna Karenina or Raskolnikov because theyโre good. We care about them because theyโre not admirable, because theyโre us, and because great writers have forgiven them for it.
Michael CunninghamI was living my own future and my brother's lost one as well. I represented him here just as he represented me there, in some unguessable other place. His move from life to death might resemble my stepping into the kitchen - into its soft nowhere quality and foggy hum. I breathed the dark air. If I had at that moment a sense of calm kindly death while my heart beat and my lungs expanded, he might know a similar sense of life in the middle of his ongoing death.
Michael Cunningham