Any other vexations to report?" he asks. "I love the word 'vexations.'" "It's the 'x.' Nice to jump off a 'v' and bite into an 'x' like that." "Just the usual ones," she says. "How was the weekend?" "Vexing. Not really, I just wanted to say it. You?
Michael CunninghamI feel like there's something terrible and wonderful and amazing that's just beyond my grasp. I have dreams about it. I do dream, by the way. It hovers over me at odd moments. And then it's gone. I feel like I'm always on the brink of something that never arrives. I want to either have it or be free of it.
Michael CunninghamI was not ladylike, nor was I manly. I was something else altogether. There were so many different ways to be beautiful.
Michael CunninghamMaybe itโs not, in the end, the virtues of others that so wrenches our hearts as it is the sense of almost unbearably poignant recognition when we see them at their most base, in their sorrow and gluttony and foolishness. You need the virtues, tooโsome sort of virtuesโbut we donโt care about Emma Bovary or Anna Karenina or Raskolnikov because theyโre good. We care about them because theyโre not admirable, because theyโre us, and because great writers have forgiven them for it.
Michael Cunningham