It occurred to me that everyoneโs story matters to themselves, so the more I listened, the more she wanted to talk.
Miranda JulyI was a lot dumber when I was writing the novel. I felt like worse of a writer because I wrote many of the short stories in one sitting or over maybe three days, and they didn't change that much. There weren't many, many drafts. That made me feel semi-brilliant and part of a magical process. Writing the novel wasn't like that. I would come home every day from my office and say, "Well, I still really like the story, I just wish it was better written." At that point, I didn't realize I was writing a first draft. And the first draft was the hardest part.
Miranda JulyWhen I was fifteen, a dark shape came into my room at night. It was dark, but it glowed, which is the first of many facts you will have to tackle with your imagination. It wasn't in the shape of a person, but right away I knew it was like a person in every way except for how it looked. As it turns out, our looks are not the main thing that makes us human.
Miranda JulyTo get anything done, you used to have to brush past, or at least lay eyes on, someone whose reality was totally different from your own. That used to be inevitable. If that goes away because everything's so convenient, everything's brought to you, well, then there goes one of my favorite parts of life, and something that I've gone out of my way to court.
Miranda Julyโฆ it wasnโt pretend, I wasnโt in a fairytale or a fable. I shut my eyes and absorbed the silent whoomp that always accompanies this revelation. Itโs the sound of the real world, gigantic and impossible, replacing the smaller version of reality that I wear like a bonnet, clutched tightly under my chin.
Miranda JulyLA isnโt a walking city, or a subway city, so if someone isnโt in my house or my car weโll never be together, not even for a moment. And just to be absolutely sure of that, when I leave my car my iPhone escorts me, letting everyone else in the post office know that Iโm not really with them, Iโm with my own people, who are so hilarious that I canโt help smiling to myself as I text them back.
Miranda July