I feel dead, wasted, awful, broken and useless. It's not the kind of feeling you forget.
Ned VizziniI wasn't going to have enough money to pay for a Good Lifestyle, which meant I'd feel ashamed, which meant I'd get depressed, and that was the big one because I knew what that did to me: it made it so I wouldn't get out of bed, which led to the ultimate thingโhomelessness. If you can't get out of bed for long enough, people come and take your bed away.
Ned VizziniI eat not because I want to, not because I have to overcome anything, not to prove myself to anyone, but because it's there. I eat because that's what people do. And somehow when the food is put in front of you by an institution, when there's a large gray force behind it and you don't have to thank anyone for it, you have the animal instinct to make it disappear.
Ned Vizzini