its hard to talk when you want to kill yourself

I feel dead, wasted, awful, broken and useless. It's not the kind of feeling you forget.

Misfortune is no excuse for cruelty.

Life can't be cured, but it can be managed.

No," mom says, looking at me in the eyes. "What's a triumph is that you woke up this morning and decided to LIVE. THAT'S a triumph. that's what you did today.

The absolute worst part of being depressed is the food. A person's relationship with food is one of their most important relationships. I don't think your relationship with your parents is that important. Some people never know their parents. I don't think your relationship with your friends are important. But your relationship with air-that's key. You can't break up with air. You're kind of stuck together. Only slightly less crucial is water. And then food. You can't be dropping food to hang with someone else. You need to strike up an agreement with it.

I've had good moments scattered since then, times when I thought I was better, but that was the last day I felt triumphant.