Nonetheless, I'm not sure this entirely accounts for my Buddhist voice, which tells me forever to give up writing, to give up on relationships, simply to give up. Whatever it is, it doesn't seem to me to be the voice of innocence.

When I think back on it, I have a sense of relaxation, as if in the seventies no one had to try to be anyone other than who they were. I'm sure that's not really true, but that's how I remember it, and I suppose it might be relatively true.

I suppose what I can say is that I do feel I have a natural spiritual sensibility.

The quality of that 'who I am', is what I hope comes out in the writing.

I'm not claiming anything like sainthood - merely a native perception.

I like the concept of an anti-muse, though I'm not quite sure what that is. If there is such a thing in my life, I suppose it is just this weariness, this sense that it is more fulfilling not to exist, to efface all traces, than to limit oneself to the determined expression of manifestation.

Anyway, to cut off one's biological dreams seems to me the most fundamental form of psychic castration that you could imagine.