I'll tell you, my friends: it's all in the nerves. The nerves that tense and relax as you approach the edges of companionship and love. The razor-sharp edges of companionship and love.
Roberto BolanoCoincidence obeys no laws and if it does we don't know what they are. Coincidence, if you'll permit me the simile, is like the manifestation of God at every moment on our planet. A senseless God making senseless gestures at his senseless creatures. In that hurricane, in that osseous implosion, we find communion.
Roberto BolanoThe secret story is the one we'll never know, although we're living it from day to day, thinking we're alive, thinking we've got it all under control and the stuff we overlook doesn't matter.
Roberto BolanoNothing happened today. And if anything did, Iโd rather not talk about it, because I didnโt understand it.
Roberto BolanoI kept having dreams all night. I thought they were touching me with their fingers. But dreams don't have fingers, they have fists, so it must have been scorpions.
Roberto BolanoWhen you die of sorrow it's as if you've broken all the bones in your body, bruised yourself all over, cracked your skull. That's sorrow.
Roberto BolanoDrink up, boys, drink up and donโt worry, if we finish this bottle weโll go down and buy another one. Of course, it wonโt be the same as the one weโve got now, but itโll still be better than nothing. Ah, what a shame they donโt make Los Suicidas mezcal anymore, what a shame that time pases, donโt you think? what a shame that we die, and get old, and everything good goes galloping away from us.
Roberto BolanoThe diseased, anyway, are more interesting than the healthy. The words of the diseased, even those who can manage only a murmur, carry more weight than those of the healthy. Then, too, all healthy people will in the future know disease. That sense of time, ah, the diseased manโs sense of time, what treasure hidden in a desert cave. Then, too the diseased truly bite, whereas the healthy pretend to bite but really only snap at the air. Then, too, then, too, then, too.
Roberto BolanoOf what is lost, irretrievably lost, all I wish to recover is the daily availability of my writing, lines capable of grasping me by the hair and lifting me up when I'm at the end of my strength. (Significant, said the foreigner.) Odes to the human and the divine. Let my writing be like the verses of by Leopardi that Daniel Biga recited on a Nordic bridge to gird himself with courage.
Roberto BolanoYou run risks. That's the plain truth. You run risks and, even in the most unlikely places, you are subject to destiny's whims.
Roberto BolanoEven on the poorest streets people could be heard laughing. Some of these streets were completely dark, like black holes, and the laughter that came from who knows where was the only sign, the only beacon that kept residents and strangers from getting lost.
Roberto BolanoThat's a pretty story,' said Afanasievna as she let go of Ansky's genitals. 'A pity I'm too old and have seen to much to believe it.' It has nothing to do with belief,' said Ansky, 'it has to do with understanding, and then changing.
Roberto BolanoThe American mirror, said the voice, the sad American mirror of wealth and poverty and constant useless metamorphosis, the mirror that sails and whose sails are pain.
Roberto BolanoSo everything lets us down, including curiosity and honesty and what we love best. Yes, said the voice, but cheer up, it's fun in the end.
Roberto BolanoThe truth is we never stop being children, terrible children covered in sores and knotty veins and tumors and age spots, but ultimately children, in other words we never stop clinging to life because we are life.
Roberto BolanoIn some lost fold of the past, we wanted to be lions and we're no more than castrated cats
Roberto BolanoJesus is the masterpiece. The thieves are minor works. Why are they there? Not to frame the crucifixion, as some innocent souls believe, but to hide it.
Roberto BolanoWhat twisted people we are. How simple we seem, or at least pretend to be in front of others, and how twisted we are deep down. How paltry we are and how spectacularly we contort ourselves before our own eyes, and the eyes of others...And all for what? To hide what? To make people believe what?
Roberto BolanoI'd obviously never heard of the group, but my ignorance in literary matters is to blame for that (every book in the world is out there waiting to be read by me).
Roberto BolanoLiterature is a vast forest and the masterpieces are the lakes, the towering trees or strange trees, the lovely, eloquent flowers, the hidden caves, but a forest is also made up of ordinary trees, patches of grass, puddles, clinging vines, mushrooms, and little wildflowers.
Roberto BolanoIโm seventeen years old, my name is Juan Garcรญa Madero, and Iโm in my first semester of law school. I wanted to study literature, not law, but my uncle insisted, and in the end I gave in. Iโm an orphan, and someday Iโll be a lawyer. Thatโs what I told my aunt and uncle, and then I shut myself in my room and cried all night.
Roberto BolanoReading is pleasure and happiness to be alive or sadness to be alive and above all it's knowledge and questions.
Roberto BolanoBright colours in the west, giant butterflies dancing as night crept like a cripple toward the east.
Roberto BolanoThere's no place on earth with more dumb girls per square foot than a college in California.
Roberto BolanoMetaphors are our way of losing ourselves in semblances or treading water in a sea of seeming.
Roberto BolanoI steal into their dreams," he said. "I steal into their most shameful thoughts, I'm in every shiver, every spasm of their souls, I steal into their hearts, I scrutinize their most fundamental beliefs, I scan their irrational impulses, their unspeakable emotions, I sleep in their lungs during the summer and their muscles during the winter, and all of this I do without the least effort, without intending to, without asking or seeking it out, without constraints, driven only by love and devotion.
Roberto BolanoFor a moment the two of them looked at each other, wordless, as if they were asleep and their dreams had converged on common ground, a place where sound was alien.
Roberto BolanoThey could read him, they could study him, they could pick him apart, but they couldn't laugh or be sad with him.
Roberto BolanoReading is like thinking, like praying, like talking to a friend, like expressing your ideas, like listening to other people's ideas, like listening to music, like looking at the view, like taking a walk on the beach.
Roberto BolanoNo one pays attention to these killings, but the secret of the world is hidden in them.
Roberto BolanoIt's strange how things happen, Mauricio Silva, known as the Eye, always tried to escape from violence even at the risk of being considered a coward, but the violence, the real violence, can't be escaped, at least not by us, born in Latin America in the 1950s, those of us who were around twenty years old when Salvador Allende died.
Roberto Bolano