I keep wondering how to explain the experience of child abuse from the inside. I'm going to try to explain what my world was like when I was sexually abused. The thing you have to remember is that this was the thinking of a child.

I think I have some interesting things to say and I don't think anybody out there is saying them.

I was having health issues all my life. You're just not conditioned to think of them as health issues.

I had a major surgery, a major abdominal surgery, and a mass was removed from my pelvic area, and I do have some more recovery to do. But everything seems to be fine.

Changing my body has given me the ability to do all these amazing things that I never in a million years imagined I could do.

There's no operation where you can have your anger cut out. But if you work on yourself, as you get better, you'll be more capable of seeing others as flawed human beings. That makes it easier to forgive.

I made the connection between food and weight, but feeling good or bad was a separate issue.