I saw my hometown burning that day.

I had to learn to forgive. I couldn't sleep at night. I got ulcers. I had to let go, to let God deal with it. No one wants to be mad in their own house. I didn't want to be angry my whole life. It takes so much energy out of you to be mean.

When I leave here, when my final day on this earth is up, I want to leave in peace. I want to have peace in my heart.

I realize I will always be the poster child for police brutality, but I can try to use that as a positive force for healing and restraint.

I saw my hometown burning that day.

Waking up sober is a good day. I love being able to wake up and do positive things, to go to the gym.

It's happening right now... it's just not on film, it's not being recorded.