Addiction is a serious desease; it will end with jail, mental institutions or death.
In England, we have such good manners that if someone says something impolite, the police will get involved.
As a person I'm a little more doubtful, introspective and analytical.
Don't listen to me. I'm a maniac, but the voice in your head, ask it "Is it right to kill 200 million animals simply for fun?". What did it say? Right. There you go.
Managing wildlife? It's wild! It don't need managing, leave it alone.
You must not feel persecuted and examined. Liberate yourself from the idea that people are watching you.