I've often thought that one of us is what we imagine, that each of us normalizes the terrible strangeness of inner life with a variety of convenient fictions.
Siri HustvedtOur brain and our whole nervous system and our whole body are only created in relation to other people and to the environment. So what we have here is an enormously complex notion of both consciousness and unconsciousness. That's why these models get very difficult, because you can't reduce our subjective and intersubjective experience to neural reductions.
Siri HustvedtI remember thinking how easy it is to speak in clichรฉs, to steal a line from pulp fiction and let it fall. We can only hover around the inexpressible with our words anyway, and there is comfort in saying what we have heard before.
Siri HustvedtThe recollections of an older man are different from those of a younger man. What seemed vital at forty may lose its significance at seventy. We manufacture stories, after all, from the fleeting sensory material that bombards us at every instant, a fragmented series of pictures, conversations, odors, and the touch of things and people. We delete most of it to live with some semblance of order, and the reshuffling of memory goes on until we die.
Siri HustvedtI don't want the words to be naked the way they are in faxes or in the computer. I want them to be covered by an envelope that you have to rip open in order to get at. I want there to be a waiting time -a pause between the writing and the reading. I want us to be careful about what we say to each other. I want the miles between us to be real and long. This will be our law -that we write our dailiness and our suffering very, very carefully.
Siri HustvedtAll human states are organic brain states - happiness, sadness, fear, lust, dreaming, doing math problems and writing novels - and our brains are not static.
Siri HustvedtIn effect, painting is the still memory of [the artist's] human motion, and our individual responses to it depend on who we are, on our character, which underlines the simple truth that no person leaves himself behind in order to look at a painting.
Siri HustvedtGreat books are the ones that are urgent, life-changing, the ones that crack open the readerโs skull and heart.
Siri HustvedtTure stories can't be told forward, only backward. We invent them from the vantage point of an ever-changing present and tell ourselves how they unfolded.
Siri HustvedtWomen really are not supposed to be imaginative. That creativity of this kind is supposed to belong to men. You know, because women make babies. I find the double standards shocking.
Siri HustvedtThat is the strangeness of language: it crosses the boundaries of the body, is at once inside and outside, and it sometimes happens that we don't notice the threshold has been crossed.
Siri HustvedtTime is not outside us, but inside. Only we live with past, present, and future, and the present is too brief to experience anyway; it is retained afterward and then it is either codified or it slips into amnesia.
Siri HustvedtNo matter how brilliant or accomplished they are, there is something emasculating for men in being pitted against a woman. It is even more true in creative fields already considered to be "squishy" and feminine, and it's a big problem because great women have been left off the record.
Siri HustvedtThe faculty of memory cannot be separated from the imagination. They go hand in hand. To one degree or another, we all invent our personal pasts. And for most of us those pasts are built from emotionally colored memories.
Siri HustvedtThe fictive is an emormous territory it turns out, its boundaries vague, and there is little certainty about where it begins and ends.
Siri HustvedtMemory is essential to who we are, and memories can be both implicit and explicit - unconscious and conscious.
Siri HustvedtThere is no reason we should expect young children to enter the nocturnal darkness of sleep and dreams without help.
Siri HustvedtLike countless first-year medical students, immersed in the symptoms of one disease after another, I am alert to the tingles and pangs, the throbs and quivers of my mortal body, each one of which is potentially a sign of the end.
Siri HustvedtThere's a phenomenology of being sick, one that depends on temperament, personal history, and the culture which we live in.
Siri HustvedtBedtime rituals for children ease the way to the elsewhere of slumber - teeth brushing and pajamas, the voice of a parent reading, the feel and smell of the old blanket or toy, the nightlight glowing in a corner.
Siri HustvedtWe read each other through our eyes, and anatomically they are an extension of our brains. When we catch someone's eye, we look into a mind.
Siri HustvedtThere is no future without a past, because what is to be cannot be imagined except as a form of repetition.
Siri HustvedtWidowers marry again because it makes their lives easier. Widows often don't, because it makes their lives harder. [p. 61]
Siri Hustvedtunder our love making I felt a bleakness that couldnt be dispelled. The sadness was in both of us, and I think we pitied ourselves that night, as if we were other people looking down on the couple who lay together on the bed
Siri HustvedtAfter years of having immersed myself in science, I do think that if you master several different ways of thinking, it makes your own thought processes more agile.
Siri HustvedtEvery sickness has an alien quality, a feeling of invasion and loss of control that is evident in the language we use about it.
Siri HustvedtPain is always emotional. Fear and depression keep constant company with chronic hurting.
Siri HustvedtOur memory fragments don't have any coherence until they're imagined in words. Time is a property of language, of syntax, and tense.
Siri HustvedtThe truth is that personality inevitably bleeds into all forms of our intellectual life. We all extrapolate from our own lives in order to understand the world.
Siri HustvedtThat night as I lay in bed, I thought of several things I could have said and mourned the fact that my wit usually bloomed late, peaking when it no longer mattered, during the solitary hours close to midnight.
Siri HustvedtReading is perception as translation. The inert signs of an alphabet become living meanings in the mind.
Siri HustvedtThere is this assumption that much of what I write is about my life, and that simply is not true.
Siri HustvedtI think that it's important for people to read philosophy and literature is not because I think everyone should be a well-rounded human being, but because it will help you think better about what you are doing.
Siri HustvedtDepression is when you think there's nothing to be done. Fortunately I always think there's something to be done.
Siri HustvedtGood books, written by men or women, are ones in which you lose consciousness of the person writing the sentences.
Siri HustvedtNot telling is just as interesting as telling I have found. Why speech, that short verbal journey from inside to outside can be excrutiating under certain circumstances is fascinating.
Siri HustvedtBeing a mother is complicated because its not just a paternal culture making demands on you; its those internal demands and expectations that women have and are self-generated.
Siri HustvedtA book is a collaboration between the one who reads and what is read and, at its best, that coming together is a love story like any other.
Siri HustvedtDreaming is another form of thinking, more concrete, more economical, more visual, and often more emotional than the thoughts of the day, but a thinking through of the day, nevertheless.
Siri HustvedtI myself have perceived women's actions as more aggressive than I would have in men because I too am walking around with my own biases. The way to fight them is to become conscious of them.
Siri HustvedtThe logic: Reading is a private pursuit, one that often takes place behind closed doors. A young lady might retreat with a book, might even take it into her boudoir, and there, reclining on here silken sheets, imbibing the thrills and chills manufactured by writerly quills, one of her hands, one not absolutely needed to grip the little volume, might wander. The fear, in short, as one-handed reading. [p. 146]
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