I've never felt so bereft and panicky. What do I do without my phone? How do I function? My hand keeps automatically reaching for my phone in its usual place in my pocket. Every instinct in me wants to text someone, 'OMG, I've lost my phone! ' but how can do that without a bloody phone?

If you can't be honest with your friends and colleagues and loved ones, then what is life all about?

I don't speak Japanese, I don't know anything about Japanese business or Japanese culture. Apart from sushi. But I can't exactly go up to him and say "Sushi!" out of the blue. It would be like going up to a top American businessman and saying, "T-bone steak!

If I behave as though this is a completely normal situation, then maybe it will be.

All this time, I wasn't hungry for success, I was hungry.

Suddenly I've had enough of all this. I've had enough of being made to feel insecure and paranoid and wondering what's going on

And maybe now you'll start treating everybody with respect. Not just the people you think are important.