Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we're nothing"; - "We accept the love we think we deserve.

I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. And to not have to see a psychiatrist, who explains to me about being "passive aggressive.

I'm not saying she was lying to me, but she just acted so different before I got to know her, and if she really isn't like what she was at the beginning, I wish she could have just said so.

And things were back to normal except we were just friends.

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

Music is a vital part of my life, and it has been since I was a kid. It helped me find my identity as a person, it helped me find my identity as an artist, and it helped me get in touch with emotions that I didn't know I had.

I wanted to laugh. Or maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everyone was, especially me.