My family had a lot of characteristics - achievements, ambitions, talents, expectations - that all seemed to be recessive in me.
Susanna KaysenMaybe, there's a moment growing up when something peels back... Maybe, maybe, we look for secrets because we can't believe our minds...
Susanna KaysenTell me that you donโt take that blade and drag it across your skin and pray for the courage to press down.
Susanna KaysenThe debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't. Anything I thought or did was immediately drawn into the debate. Made a stupid remark--why not kill myself? Missed the bus--better put an end to it all. Even the good got in there. I liked that movie--maybe I shouldn't kill myself.
Susanna Kaysen