One truth, many paths.
God knows your breaking point. You simply donโt know your own strength.
The light is within. It is already there. Take your time to see it.
In not only the physical science, but in the real mental silence, the wisdom dawns.
The moment you understand yourself as the true Self, you find such peace and bliss that the impressions of the petty enjoyments you experienced before become as ordinary specks of light in front of the brilliant sun.
..just do, leave it there, if it comes let it come, but don't look for it.