Any guy, even imaginary, would just feel like second best. Second best to what? I don't even have an image of the perfect boyfriend. I just know he must exist. Because I have all these feelings-love, longing, wanting to be touched, dreaming of being kissed-yet no one to focus them on.
Tabitha SuzumaIf I keep breathing, then I have to keep living, and if I keep living, then I have to keep hurting, and I can't - not like this.
Tabitha SuzumaIt's horrible being ashamed of someone you care about; it eats away at you. And if you let it get to you, if you give up the fight and surrender, eventually that shame turns to hate.
Tabitha SuzumaWillaโs big blue eyes, Willaโs dimpled-cheeked smile. Tiffinโs shaggy blond mane, Tiffinโs cheeky grin. Kitโs yells of excitement, Kitโs glow of pride. Mayaโs face, Mayaโs kisses, Mayaโs love. Maya, Maya, Maya . . .
Tabitha SuzumaI've never seen anyone sleep with their head hanging off the back of a wooden chair before - was the couch not comfortable enough for you?
Tabitha SuzumaBut then why is it so terrible for me to be with the girl I love? Everyone one is permitted to have what they want, express their love as they please, without fear of harassment, ostracism, persecution, or even the law. Even emotionally abusive, adulterous relationships are often tolerated, despite the harm they cause others. In our progressive, permissive society, all these harmful, unhealthy types of "love" are allowed--but not ours.
Tabitha Suzuma