If I keep breathing, then I have to keep living, and if I keep living, then I have to keep hurting, and I can't - not like this.

As the light begins to intensify, so does my misery, and I wonder how it is possible to hurt so much when nothing is wrong.

only a matter of time before it broke through our fragile web of denial, forcing us to confront the truth and acknowledge who we are: two people in love – a love that nobody else could possibly understand.

She can't just be a face, a body; there has to be more than that, some kind of connection. And I can't connect, don't want to connect, with anyone.

There are no laws, no boundaries on feelings.We can love each other as much and as deeply as we want.No one, Maya, no one can ever take that away from us.

Get through today – you can fall apart tomorrow. Get through tomorrow, you can fall apart the day after . . .

If I move, if I speak, if I so much as blink, I'm going to lose this battle.