I always wonder, aside from even my name, what if my parents never split up? What if my mother never died? It swirls in my head all the time.

It was a free-for-all with music when I was growing up. My mother was a huge music fanatic so I was listening to everything from country to heavy metal to Indigo Girls to Elton John. I guess when I was really young I didn't like Willie Nelson, and she obviously loved him. Now I do too, I'm so thankful to her for playing his music nonstop.

Not many people have had as much bad luck as I have, but not many people have had as much good luck, either.

I didn't know whether I'd be attractive to anybody.

I was talking and playing pranks and skipping school, failing pretty much every class I took.

I didn't know what my fate was as far as being alive.

I am just at tragedy right now.