How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren't even physical?

Maybe the new me will be different.

Lying - remembering beauty in truth.

I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity.

one day I'll be old, without ever having really been young

How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren't even physical?

The same old dumb teachers teaching the same old dumb subjects in the same old dumb school. I seem to be kind of losing interest in everything. At first I thought high school would be fun but it's just dull. Everything's dull. Maybe it's because I'm growing up and life is becoming more blase.