My goal is to try to avoid a regular job.

I'm trying to let winning the world championships settle in right now before I begin training again shortly. During the skating season, we skate on average 20 kilometres a day. On top of that, we're riding a lot and lifting a lot of weights.

Ive had so many experiences in cycling, but in some ways I have nothing left to prove. I have achieved more than I could have dreamed of, Ive raced a lot longer than I thought I would. I know I can still be better, but I just dont know if I love it enough any more.

The only reason I've shared my story is to take that tiny baby step of breaking down the stigma attached to depression.

With athletes, it's never fully understood the level to which we push ourselves. Especially in an endurance sport.

Sport that consumed me for over two decades . . . is now gone. Now it's just me. No pressure, no expectations, no need to be fast, good, strong or to even improve. Yet I can't let go of this idea that I always need to be more than I am. And it is eating me alive.

I love working with kids and I want to just be able to do it from my heart and not as a job.