Passion will always move you in the direction of your authentic self.
Why are you afraid? This is where you get it out of your system: bankruptcy, unfulfilled potential, trashing your reputation, losing it all. And then (because we just can't stop there), you're going to apply some simple analysis to it.You may have nothing to fear after all.
If you trusted that your art was going to support your life, how would you live?
Make space in your life for the inevitable arrival of what you want.
Laying on the floor and listening to music might be all the therapy that you need.
Enthusiasm is the DNA of making things happen.