I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.

Remember that at any given moment there are a thousand things you can love.

I am a drifter, and as lonely as that can be, it is also remarkably freeing. I will never define myself in terms of anyone else. I will never feel the pressure of peers or the burden of parental expectation. I can view everyone as pieces of a whole, and focus on the whole, not the pieces. I have learned to observe, far better than most people observe. I am not blinded by the past or motivated by the future. I focus on the present because that is where I am destined to live.

And I, who have never thought in terms of a life, think to myself that I could make a life out of this.

I measure the moment in the heartbeats I skip

Let’s make plans,” I ventured. And Sofia smiled and said, “No, let’s leave it to chance.

I see Nick's number. I debate whether to assign a name to his number. If I commit to that, then I will truly be heartbroken if he never calls me again; my heart will knot each and every time I use this phone and see his name in there. I would probably end up having to trash the phone entirely.