In my experience, desire is desire, love is love. I have never fallen in love with a gender. I have fallen for individuals.

this is what i never allowed myself to need. and of course what i've been needing all along.

You can give words, but you can't take them. And when words are given, that is when they are shared. We remember what that was like. Words so real they were almost tangible. There are conversations you remember, for certain. But more than that, there is the sensation of conversation. You will remember that, even when the precise words begin to blur.

You don't know me. You know one me, just like I know one you. And you can't know every me, and I can't know every you.

I notice you, I want to say. Even when no one else does, I do. I will.

In Sliding Doors, the whole idea is that every choice you make, and every single thing that happens to you changes the trajectory of your life, and once you are put on that trajectory, there is no way back. But Groundhog Day - which, I tell him, also happens to be a much better movie - says the opposite. It says if you mess up or make the wrong choice, you just have to keep at it until you do it right.

I have no more idea now of who I am than I did before. But at least I know that. And I'm starting to figure out who I want to be.