Before machines the only form of entertainment people really had was relationships.

It'd be preposterous for me to propose a universal cure to loneliness but I will say that people who do the things they find interesting, either creatively or vocationally, tend to become unlonely very quickly.

Mom said that people are interested in birds only in as much as they exhibit human behavior - greed and stupidity and anger - and by doing so they free us from the unique sorrow of being human...I told Mom my own theory of why we like birds - of how birds are a miracle because they prove to us there is a finer, simpler state of being which we may strive to attain.

just then a bee bumbled above us and stole our attention the way flying things can

I think writing would have happened to me anyway, somehow. Differently, but it still would have happened.

I kind of wonder if creativity is all morphing into one big thing that's not even art, but something universal and bigger.

It's around midnight. After I left Dad, my choice was to either become very drunk or write this. I chose to write this. It felt kind of now-or-never for me.