Think long and hard before offering your heart to someone who can only accept it part-time
Ellen HopkinsNot Exactly True That skin hate is dead. There will never be color blindness in a culture of fear. But when you live afraid of your neighbor, the monster you should most walk in terror of thrives. It starts as a little thing, small enough to burrow into your pores, take up excruciating residence in the dark recesses of your brain. Its name is paranoia, and it spreads like an oil spill, there in the shadows, chokes your humanity. Threatens your soul.
Ellen HopkinsHave you ever had so much to say that your mouth closed up tight struggling to harness the nuclear force coalescing within your words? Have you ever had so many thoughts churning inside you that you didn’t dare let them escape in case they blew you wide open? Have you ever been so angry that you couldn’t look in the mirror for fear of finding the face of evil glaring back at you?
Ellen HopkinsSomething stirred beneath my skin, some being inside I'd only suspected existed, demon or angel, I couldn't say.
Ellen HopkinsLiving means taking chances. Risks. Playing safe all the time is being dead inside, even if you happen to still be breathing.
Ellen HopkinsI wish I were worthy of his love. (Any love.)I should tell him to run. But I can't. I need him.
Ellen HopkinsWhatever has happened in someone's past, the future is theirs to shape. The first step is to find a way out.
Ellen HopkinsGirls are impossible to satisfy." "Not every girl." Not me. I'd be happy if he'd just like me a little.
Ellen HopkinsShe's no longer afraid to die. What she's afraid of is living, accepting the status quo.
Ellen HopkinsYou believe this is a game, and you may be right. But if you think you can play it better than me, think again.
Ellen HopkinsBut Hey, Guess What Crazy means I'm not liable for my actions. So screw it, I'll go home, propped up on Prozac against distractions
Ellen Hopkinsi expected demands. he gifted me with tenderness. i expected ego. he let me experiment. i expected disrespect. he called me beautiful. i expected him to expect perfection. he taught me all i needed to know.
Ellen HopkinsIn control. Out of control. Sometimes they're the same thing. The trick is knowing that, realizing it's okay to feel out of control once in a while, as long as you're sure you can regain the upper hand when you absolutely need to.
Ellen HopkinsYou can’t walk away from someone you love, leave them drowning in your desertion. If love has no more meaning than that, you can keep it. I don’t want it now or ever again. Don’t want to hear the word or wear its scars.
Ellen HopkinsThis is unstoppable, no holds barred. This is beautiful. Crazy. A beginning. Betrayal. Addictive. Aggressive. Alive. This is something to be afraid of.
Ellen HopkinsStarving for a high, a place to hang out inside my own head. Starving for touch. Pain, even. A way to feel. I need to feel.
Ellen HopkinsGrandma once told me it's easy to overthink love, to dissect it and question it until it is no more.
Ellen HopkinsI need to capture my sprite with trembling hands. Except I could crush her. Wonder how many small things of beauty - flowers, seashells, dragonflies - have met such a demise. Wonder how much fragile love has collapsed beneath the weight of confession.
Ellen HopkinsI still care for you, you know.. That phrase again. Everyone cares for me. They just don't know how to love me.
Ellen HopkinsCleansed, chlorinated to the point of chemical peel, sore muscles relieved, I felt almost human again. Tiptoe to my room, up a darkened hall, past closed doors, I wondered if I'd ever feel completely human again.
Ellen HopkinsThen teach me how to not care about someone who was everything to me. All I want is to know she's okay. Is that too much to ask?
Ellen HopkinsFace red, but brave in spite of it, Ethan offered an even smaller box. My hands shook as i opened it. Set in a gold promise ring, three small diamonds glittered. One for you, one for me, one for us, he said sweetly. I love you.
Ellen HopkinsGod is love," she said. "And he respects love, whether it's between a parents, and child, a man and woman, or friends. I don't think he cares about religion one little bit. Live your life right. Love with all your heart. Don't hurt others, and help those in need. That is all you need to know. And don't worry about heaven. If it exists, you'll be welcome.
Ellen HopkinsSome people never find love at all, count yourself blessed if it ever happens your way
Ellen HopkinsI was about six years old, still Daddy's little girl, even though Daddy couldn't care less about me. How could I expect any man every would?
Ellen HopkinsAnd now life has become the future. Every moment of your life is lived for the future-you go to high school so you can go to college so you can get a good job so you can get nice house.
Ellen HopkinsYou are a gift to all who know you, whether or not they realize it. If they don't, they are blind. You have a special place in this world. All you have to do is find it. Do not give up on yourself, or the truths you have realized. Do not give in to those who could crush your dreams like nutshells. And never turn away from forever love.
Ellen HopkinsGhosts Take shape under moonlight, materialize in dreams. Shadows. Silhouettes of what is no more. But ghosts don't bother me. The day brings bigger things to worry about than flimsy remains of yesterday. No, spooks don't scare me. Gauzy apparitions might prank your psyche or agitate your nightmares, but lacking flesh and blood they are powerless to hurt you-cannot hope to inflict the kind of damage that real, live people do.
Ellen HopkinsI'm sad. Pressed down by sorrow. I'm angry. Pissed at God, if there is one, and the way things are. I'm scared. Confused by the whys. Why are we here? Is there, really, some intelligent design? Why do we cry for someone who leaves us if there's some Grand Pearly Gate in the sky? Why worry about how we build our lives if the ultimate ending for all is death, a single breath away? (358)
Ellen Hopkins