You're not capable of stepping into nirvana at this time. If you did it would be disastrous. You're tonal would be swamped.
Frederick LenzBehind the transient reality, there is something else. It is a deeper, more permanent and unchanging reality that we Buddhists call nirvana.
Frederick LenzYou might wish to try Kali's mantra. Kali is another celestial being. She offers very fast spiritual progress through intensity. Her mantra is "Kring!" When you chant Kring, chant it very intensely and sharply. Only chant Kring when you are in a high meditation.
Frederick Lenz