I was ill, and everyone could see it but me.
I used to go missing a lot... Miss Canada, Miss United Kingdom, Miss World.
I even found it difficult to watch myself playing on TV because I couldn't identify with the person on the screen. I couldn't get to grips with it. It was as if it was all happening to someone else.
I was born with a great gift, and sometimes with that comes a destructive streak.
I always wanted more - more of everything.
I must be the only person in the world who's looking forward to going into hospital. I can't wait to get it over and done with.