I like the discipline of writing a script. You can't go into the character's head - you have to find these creative ways to help externalize what they're thinking.
Gillian FlynnWhat an indulgence it would be, to just blow off my head, all my mean spirits disappearing with a gun blast, like blowing a seedy dandelion apart.
Gillian FlynnWomen get consumed. Not surprising, considering the sheer amount of traffic a woman's body experiences. Tampons and speculums. Cocks, fingers, vibrators and more, between the legs, from behind, in the mouth.
Gillian FlynnI assumed everything bad in the world could happen, because everything bad in the world already did happen.
Gillian FlynnMy dad had limitations. That's what my good-hearted mom always told us. He had limitations, but he meant no harm. It was kind of her to say, but he did do harm.
Gillian FlynnI just think some women aren't made to be mothers. And some women aren't made to be daughters.
Gillian FlynnSometimes I think illness sits inside every woman, waiting for the right moment to bloom. I have known so many sick women all my life. Women with chronic pain, with ever-gestating diseases. Women with conditions. Men, sure, they have bone snaps, they have backaches, they have a surgery or two, yank out a tonsil, insert a shiny plastic hip. Women get consumed.
Gillian FlynnI often don't say things out loud, even when I should. I contain and compartmentalize to a disturbing degree: In my belly-basement are hundreds of bottles of rage, despair, fear, but you'd never guess from looking at me.
Gillian FlynnMy mother had always told her kids: if you're about to do something, and you want to know if it's a bad idea, imagine seeing it printed in the paper for all the world to see.
Gillian FlynnI'd come to believe there was no food more depressing than Danish, a pastry that seemed stale upon arrival
Gillian FlynnI am a cutter, you see. Also a snipper, a slicer, a carver, a jabber. I am a very special case. I have a purpose. My skin, you see, screams. It's covered with words - cook, cupcake, kitty, curls - as if a knife-wielding first-grader learned to write on my flesh. I sometimes, but only sometimes, laugh. Getting out of the bath and seeing, out of the corner of my eye, down the side of a leg: baby-doll. Pulling on a sweater, and in a flash of my wrist: harmful. Why these words?
Gillian FlynnI feel like I need to give people a note with the book that says, 'I'm OK, no worries!'
Gillian FlynnI feel myself trying to be charming, and then I realize Iโm obviously trying to be charming, and then I try to be even more charming to make up for the fake charm, and then Iโve basically turned into Liza Minnelli: Iโm dancing in tights and sequins, begging you to love me. Thereโs a bowler and jazz hands and lots of teeth.
Gillian FlynnI'm a huge fan of ghost stories, that sort of slow build, the suspense and the questioning about whether you're imagining something or if it's real.
Gillian FlynnThey always call depression the blues, but I would have been happy to waken to a periwinkle outlook. Depression to me is urine yellow, washed out, exhausted miles of weak piss.
Gillian FlynnI was pretending, the way I often did, pretending to have a personality. I can't help it, it's what I've always done: The way some women change fashion regularly, I change personalities. What persona feels good, what's coveted, what's au courant? I think most people do this, they just don't admit it, or else they settle on one persona because they are too lazy or stupid to pull a switch.
Gillian FlynnI can't think of anything more crushing than slowly, over time, realizing exactly how wrong you were about someone.
Gillian FlynnIt was that summer, too, that I began the cutting, and was almost as devoted to it as my newfound loveliness. I adored tending to myself, wiping a shallow red pool of my blood away with a damp washcloth to magically reveal, just above my naval: queasy. Applying alcohol with dabs of a cottonball, wispy shreds sticking to the bloody lines of: perky. I had a dirty streak my senior year, which I later rectified.
Gillian FlynnHe was one of those guys who'd pronounce I'm a hugger as he came at you, neglecting to ask if the feeling was mutual.
Gillian FlynnItโs a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an endless Automat of characters.
Gillian FlynnThe question I've asked more often during our marriage, if not out loud, if not to the person who could answer. I supposed these questions storm cloud over every marriage: What are you thinking how are you feeling? Who are you? What have we done to each other? What will we do?
Gillian FlynnI think mystery writers and thriller writers - whatever genre you want to call it - are taking on some of the biggest, most interesting kind of socioeconomic issues around in a really interesting, compelling way.
Gillian FlynnBecause isnโt that the point of every relationship: to be known by someone else, to be understood? He gets me. She gets me. Isnโt that the simple magic phrase?
Gillian FlynnI think there is something very relatable in the idea that you hit a certain age, later in your life, where you realize you have to pick up the rug and see what's underneath it and deal with stuff.
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