She gave me this look โ she might have been watching from a lifeboat as the ship went down. Or maybe it was the other way around.
Haruki MurakamiYou donโt get it, do you?" I said. โItโs not a question of โwhat thenโ. Some people get a kick out of reading railroad timetables and thatโs all they do all day. Some people make huge model boats out of matchsticks. So whatโs wrong if there happens to be one guy in the world who enjoys trying to understand you?
Haruki MurakamiThere are some things about myself I canโt explain to anyone. There are some things I donโt understand at all. I canโt tell what I think about things or what Iโm after. I donโt know what my strengths are or what Iโm supposed to do about them. But if I start thinking about these things in too much detail the whole thing gets scary. And if I get scared I can only think about myself. I become really self-centered, and without meaning to, I hurt people. So Iโm not such a wonderful human being.
Haruki MurakamiIโm me, and at the same time not me. Thatโs what it felt like. A very still, quiet feeling.
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